Haaaa oh wow I hate myself a lot

I mean I don’t have any reasons to be so mentally fucked up I live such a fortunate life and have such a supportive and great family and I am so, so lucky and grateful

But I find myself just having a really hard time with a lot of things and feeling like shit a good 95% of the time where there are people with real problems and real reasons for their problems right next to me and I just I can’t 

They’re so put together though too I mean I respect it so much but I am just a fucking mess all the time and I just want to punch myself in the face every waking second